mercyseverity's Blog

forever.
i never believed it was a real word. i only used it when i didnt care. you came into my life when i least expected it. thinking it never existed. you brought this word into my life. always and only wanting this to be true, loving you through and through. i now know it can be. bcos i love you and always will forever.

where were you? you said you would b here for me forever. ha! so u thought. you cast me aside like i wasnt worth a thing. i praised you more and more for that. i tried to talk to you about it but our communications werent clear. years pass n i finally woke up. feeling alone and played by the one i gave my all to and got nothing in return. i was shadowed by the role playing in our lives. i did the best i could do, n u sat by n did nothing, nothing, NOTHING! i carried us our relationship. through it all i worked my fingers to the bone to b betrayed by my love. i feel tired and used up. grew tired of the lies and emptiness you gave me, thinkiing itll be worth it in the end if i stick it out. i stuck it out so far my fucking neck was on the block and i was holding the ax. what was i thinking? what were we thinking? you told me over and over how lucky u were, i wanted to feel lucky too! i lived through alot thinking my life is what it is. when i woke up, i realized a very important thing! you werent genuine or sincere, your love for me was never shown. i felt like a jerk letting you treat me so coldly through the years. well now im suffering without you. but i know in my deepest core of my soul YOU ARE NOT THE ONE I LOVED!
i move on, i feel i really found love through and through, you had the words, my TRUE LOVE has the actions!
showing me, laughing with me, holding me. he is the most important thing to my heart.
thank you imperial light for the goodness that awaits me and my love.
so shall it be.